Clean Page Paralysis

Jean Bevis

I have
.............clean page paralysis.

.........................Words crowd and chafe each other in my head, then dart and scurry away from my pen, resisting arrest and confinement to paper.

I search about for other words, sampling and tasting and considering each, and stand dismayed at their quick escape.

I ask, "What is it I want to hold in print--and how? What profound enough for another, after me, to read and value?

What is notable enough for others- after me-- to examine and remember in a distant time and place?

And now I have the answer to break the blockage and release the flow.

Being oldest of my line now, only I can phrase and form the images of life past and loved ones gone--and validate all those family ties that no one else remembers now....And give what I was never given--memories of family on paper.

Winter 2001

©2001 Jean Bevis

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